Tawakkul, The tie your camel Hadith ?

Now somewhere out there, they actually sell this frame!

Anas (radi Allahu anhu) reported that a person asked Rasul Allah (sal Allahu alaihi wa sallam), “Should I tie my camel and have Tawakkul (trust in Allah for her protection) or should I leave her untied and have Tawakkul.” Rasul Allah (Sall Allahu Alaihi Wa Sallam) replied, “Tie her and have Tawakkul.” (Hasan) [Jami At-Tirmidhi]

Knowing it is one thing, practicing it on a daily basis is another one altogether... the question is what holds me back ?

I would like to believe I have complete tawakkul in Allah in all matters ...... but as much as I am able to practice it with bigger trials of life, my relationship with my sister, my husband losing his job, finding a job, trying to find home where we are now, but seem to lack it when I don't see the results of what I am trying to teach my kids........ Isn't tawakkul required there too ? 

This is where I think I need to concentrate on the second part of the Hadith..... 

How can I do it :

1. Check my self how diligently am I praying for pious children
2. Step back and see what I am doing wrong... (even though I think it's my kids not me!)
3. Hold back my frustration

Question...

Why am I frustrated.....

I don't think I am achieving what I've been trying to achieve.........in disciplining my kids and bringing them up with taqwa in all their actions

I feel I am not an embodiment of the sunnah or the Prophetic way of teaching or dealing with children.. yes I love my children and am thankful to Allah for their health and so much more... but I don't think I show my kids of how thankful I am to Allah for them... What a pity ! Astaghfirullah

Steps that I want to take to improve in this area:

Listen to : Hisham Al Awadi's "Children Around Prophet"

Listen to : Sheikh Ala's talk on rights of children and rights of parents from his family series pack

(which I may point out.....finding the CD was a Dua Allah heard and I just found it in the last house I had moved in....... YET I still haven't watched it hoping to do it wioth my husband)  

I guess it's HIGH TIME to stop waiting and atleast watch it myslef!  

Read : Nabi Kareem Sallallaho alaihi wasallam as a Muallim by Professor Dr Fadl Ilahi in Urdu

I give myself 2 months to do all of the above....... I will update you as I accomplish them BEIDHNILLAH

How is this related with the title of this post ?

I feel I have been lacking in steps to achieve the tawakkul I need in raising my children in Allah's way........

First I need to equip myself and USE the proper tools, and THEN have complete tawakkul on Allah for my and children's path of becoming MUTTAQI......

Please share your thoughts and advice from Quran , Sunnah and personal experience....